It's A Good Thing I'm Not God

The older I get the more impatient I feel with others, even my brothers and sisters in Christ.   My sense of fairness is lacking and my justice leans more towards judgment than mercy.  What’s up with that?  I told some dear friends last night that it’s a good thing I’m not God because I would just blow everybody up because I just don’t have the patience or grace to deal with lack of common sense, lack of good judgment, and unhealthy boundaries in others, but I do and am all of those things, so what am I thinking?  Aren’t you glad I’m not God?  J

When I think about how longsuffering our Lord is, how patient He is with us, how He delays His coming until all have heard whom He calls to Himself, and how He simply loves us even in the filthiest conditions of our heart, I am overwhelmed.  How can I not love a God who loves me like that?  You see, the truth is I am the man whom, if I were God, I would want to annihilate.  You see, my sin is great, and those who hold me accountable and know me best can attest to that, but my Savior is greater.  Jesus said that if we break any part of the law we are guilty of breaking it all, so that tells me that I am an adulterer, fornicator, liar, man of greed, homosexual, man of arrogance, gossiper, murderer, idol maker, and much more.  No, I haven’t actually committed all of these sins during my lifetime, but because I broke the law in the ways that I have, without Jesus, there is no difference between me and my sin and all those who have actually committed the sins I just listed.  The truth is, I have committed some of the sins that I just listed, if not in action, in thought and in the intent of my heart.  If I were God, I would suck the hope right out of the atmosphere because in my finite mind, I’m afraid I would not be able to heap the same love and forgiveness that has been heaped on me.  I realize that, by nature, God is a God of infinite forgiveness and love for the unloveable, but I can’t think like He does because I’m not Him, but when I think about being Him in my natural mind I am limited by my desire to see judgment and see people pay for what they have done.  I need to look in the mirror first and realize I am that man who needs to pay for what he has done.  I deserve the judgment of God, but I won’t ever receive it because I have been bought with a price, I have been bought and redeemed by the precious blood of Christ.  Now that truth, brings me back to reality whenever I may think I would do if I were God, because it stops me in my tracks by reminding me of the great love and forgiveness I have been shown, so how can I not show that to others. 

God…there is only ONE God, and everyone is glad it’s not me because if I were, we would all be fried.  Who am I to even think about being God, but you know it does cross all of our minds from time to time when we see an unfairness or injustice that we can’t control and we don’t feel that God is controlling (even though He is).  All I can say is what 1 John teaches us, “God is light and in Him is no darkness at all…”, so thank heavens the position is already filled because my heart is so dark at times, I would definitely be out of the running.